I want to break the no contact rule.
I want to speak with you, to talk things through. I want to give us both a second chance. I want to believe you are capable of the change you were so proud of yet never displayed. It really hurts not having with whom to speak. Now I just keep things to myself. I can act tough, but I'm not. You've isolated me from our mutual friends, you didn't even end things in person. I don't remember if I've already written this on here or not, but you are sensitive not empathetic. You will cry watching a film yet you can't understand how it felt for me when you were always so cold and formal, when you didn't kiss me, when you didn't trust me with what was going on in your life. You were not a good girlfriend. I'm not sure you will ever be. You never respected me. If you remotely cared about me you would have initiated a text at least once after breaking up, you would have told me in person, you wouldn't talk shit about me with our mutuals so they are on your side. I hate and love you.