Horray! Finally a website.
I've been hurting so so much lately. My ex dumped me shy of two weeks ago. It hurts. It really flipping does. I can't get over her. Years of effort, of talking, of good memories; and in one instant, over text, she ended it all. Was I partly at fault? Of course. I'm not perfect, nobody is, but the fact that she ended it all so coldly, with such distance destroyed me. No contact. Suddenly, everything I enjoyed became a burden. My studies, my exams, all left aside just to ponder: why? How did we get here? Just 2 days before ending things off with me we spent a lovely evening at our favourite place and she didn't mention any issues, why could she not trust me? It hurts.
The purpose of this "blog" is to document everything, to let it be seen. To distract myself. It's dirty, poorly written, not stylish, but who cares? Who cares about this stupid website? More importantly: who cares about me? I am left with zero friends and just one mate from uni with whom I vaguely speak with. Since the breakup I've lost 4kg and my BMI is nearly crossing that of being underweight *sighs*. I'm just tired man. After my family got used to her, after I got used to her family, she ended it. Why? Does she really not have any feelings? How can she avoid texting me anything? Why can we not talk face to face like grown-ups? She's hurt me a lot.