Just in time for a daily post.
Well, today was a day... that's for sure. Just in time for a daily post. Today I started messing around with the Pi Zero, tomorrow I'll continue. My exam could have gone better , yet I still think I did decent. I made this journal to forget you, and I'm starting to think it's working. Despite the good and the bad, deep down I'm not sure if we are meant to be together. You are a posh rich spoiled girl and I just want a simple life. I want to be able to use a dumbphone and get a phone call from you. My ego was indeed to high. I need to step down. Live a simpler life. My goal is to save up around 30k€ by next year from my job and aim for 80k€ total in the next 4 years. Without you I won't be needing to spend a penny on vacations or "experiences". With that kind of money I'll be able to make an entry payment for a small apartment I'll be able to actually own. Maybe I can move to the countryside, who knows. I'm tired of the city. Everyone is so fake. I'm tired of fake problems. I'm tired of having to buy things I can't afford. I'm tired of having to please others and comply with your brain-dead social norms. I want a simple life. I don't need a Rolex and a Ferrari. I want enough money to afford a home, to have kids. I want to be able to afford luxury and choose not to. I refuse to spend 1k€ on a new iPhone when my 6 year old phone still works. I'm just tired and want to heal. I want to go for a run. I'm not content with my body: skinny, weak, no muscles. My hobbies revolve around my laptop. I want to embrace that while also expand to new horizons. To work on my health and my future. Ambition only creates suffering. Fighting natural urges is hard. You shouldn't ignore them, but you should be critical and analyse if it'll bring you any good. Signing off for today. Good riddance.