I need more order.
Unless I implement new schedules I won't be able to make any progress. Despite dreaming about minimalism and wanting a simple life, as soon as I grab my phone I just start doom scrolling and wasting time and I never actually do stuff. I did start tinkering with the Pi Zero, but I still need to work more. Ideally I would finish working on the Pi tomorrow and leave the whole setup mounted at my parents house so it's ready for use. Using Alpine Linux on it was not the brightest idea since not having some of the pre-built binaries I need for musl is a big pain, more so when working with such little compute power.
Today I went to shop groceries with my dad and I just can't believe how expensive everything is nowadays. We went to the butcher and the total bill came to 120€ and then we went to buy more general stuff (fruit, pizzas, ice cream, cheese, cleaning products, etc.) and the total was 230€. We didn't even buy that much.
Since I have all my money in cash I thought it might be interesting to start gambling small parts of it on the stock market with ETFs, options and the like. I'm not sure I'm elegible for a margin account, but I'll look into setting one up on IBKR. They have a nice Linux client and provide a nice SDK to interact with their API so maybe I can find or make a simple CLI client to see my positions. I wouldn't go too crazy, but I can deposit 1-2k€ and play around and see how much I'm able to degen.
I have zero friends I talk with in a day to day basis, I'm pretty alone since my girlfriend left me. I'm starting to question if I would even want to be with her again. Maybe it was the right decision all along. I'm not sure about it. I need more time. I only think lustfully of her. Do I really miss her or just the sex?
As I continue with the daily entries manually editing a single HTML file, I've started to think that it might be a good idea to split the articles into a few pages and only show the last 5 or so as to not use too much bandwidth and having to edit an increasingly large text file. At the moment I think I'll leave it as-is, but in the future I might consider splitting the content into pages and maybe add some "About me" or "Contact" page. I don't think anyone actually reads this beside AI scrapers, so unless I gain a lot of traction I don't really care anyway.
Posting about your life in the internet is not the brightest idea and yet I do it because it makes me accountable and forces me to be consistent for a non-existent audience. Nonetheless, it helps me process my thoughts, what I think, what I want, what I don't. This is my way of expressing my thoughts and letting go. I feel like I loved her, but I'm not sure if it was the right thing. Maybe she is better off with someone else who can better meet her needs.
While writing this I noticed I need to learn proper touch typing. I have memorised the keyboard and can type decently fast, at least faster than what most people can type anyway and I don't really need to look much to know what I need to type, however, my hand placement is awful as it's non-standard and when I don't use my laptop I always mess everything up since I'm not used to the different distances and special key positions. I use a 15.6" laptop and it has a full keyboard which I really like. It's clicky but not overly loud. That's all for today. Sleep well. Have fun. You only live once.