Ordering.
It's time to order. I woke up at 10PM after having gone to sleep at around 1AM. I need to write a todo list of what I should do today to avoid it being a waste of time.
I need to shut down. I started this article at 12AM and it's now 19:30PM.
I want to talk with you. I need to. And at the same time, I don't. I want to be over you. You live rent free in my head. In the last weeks of our relationship I didn't tell you that I loved you. I want to change, for you. I also want you to change, for me. It's confusing to think that I did so many things wrong, yet you did too. We are very far from perfect. Nobody is better than the other. I really believe that. It's easier to distract oneself with work and studies and leisure than to face the issues. Right now, the correct thing is to wait. I reckon I should wait at least until 2 months have passed. I want to tell you that I waited because I care. If after 2 months you still can't talk to me or see my face, then I guess it's better to go no contact forever because I can't live knowing you can't stand to see or talk to me.
I still have time for the day. I think I will go have a shower, install Ubuntu server to the Pi Zero and that will be all.
As for tomorrow, my idea is to finish up my report and start studying for my drivers licence (unlikely).
Today, I picked up some heavy gas cylinders and it felt great. There is something to lifting weight. To using your muscles. It's great. I want to do more exercise and I think the best way to make me accountable for it is to keep a spreadsheet to keep track. Day, time, exercises, repetitions. Then, make charts. In fact, I should make it a habit to do at least 3 minutes of exercise before publishing an update to the website. I will do it right now. Done. Even created a small section to the page with a table.